it's October...

Hello,

I'm not sure how, when, or why, but summer came and went. I felt like I was present for it, but somehow it seems that I missed it. It passed me by. It's October 4th! As you may or may not know, I'm a summer time/beach life lady. Why am I in New York City? Well... that's the question.

It's been a strange few months. Not that you would know because I haven't updated you, have I? Well, I couldn't seem to put my finger on the way things were going and how I felt about the passing weeks, hence my lack of posting, again. Sorry! I just haven't been quite sure what to say. I'll get there though. I do really like the idea of this blog if for no other reason than to keep you, my closest friends and family members, slightly up to date on my life. But if there's nothing to read, well, then there's nothing to read. I'll work on that.

Moving forward, I'm feeling optimistic about this season. (The weather and the non-weather!) It's cold today and a bit of a shock, but there's no time like the present. I'm ready to adjust and figure out what it is I'm supposed to be doing. As of now, I still have no idea. But it's time to jump in head first and get busy. I just need to find my way to the pool. (My directional sense is starting to get a little better.)

I have been feeling very fortunate that I have such an amazing family. My brother is one of the most powerful beings on this planet. Johnny, if you're reading, you're the coolest. So glad you're my friend and you live such an inspiring life. My mom, what can I say about her? Ma, you are everything, heart and soul and life. Teacher, friend, listener. Thank you. You're so brave and I'm so proud of you. Everything is going to be just fine. And if we need to, we'll skip town. My dad probably isn't reading. I'm not sure if he knows how to check email yet. However, somehow we've found a new thing together that works and is allowing us to co-exist. You've been surprising me. You've made some exciting changes, for the better. You deserve all the happiness that's out there. Thank you for teaching me such valuable lessons.

To my Aunt Doreena, if you're reading, I think about you lots and lots, and I believe that although we can't see why, once we come to the end of any given road, it all comes together and then you have any number of new paths to choose from. You're so strong and powerful and you have said many things that remain in my memory, encouraging and supporting me. Thank you. I miss you and hope I can spend some time with you soon. Love ya, mean it, ciao bay-bayyyy!

My friends, although we are far apart, are always with me. Mal, you know I love you and don't know what I'd do without you and your wisdom. Thank you for being who you are. I can't wait to spend some face to face time together. To my little fairy Daphne, who has set back out to sea, you're a little magical sea-nymph. You are exactly where you belong right now and I can't wait to see what happens next. I love you! You should start a blog or a tumblr so those of us on land can follow your travels! My Jenny-bird, you've been on my mind a lot. We need to catch up. I miss you so much. You are the sister that I never had! Come visit me please. Borrelli, you too. You're such an amazing, crazy lady and I wish we were closer. Laura, Chels, Katie, I'm so jealous of how much time you guys get to spend together! I miss you so much and you are all so amazingly beautiful! It's blows my mind. I'll see you guys over the holidays for sure, if not sooner. Ryan, somehow we've found our way into a kind of brother/sister relationship. Do you feel that? I know we give each other a lot of shit, but close friends are hard on each other when they need to be. I'm lucky to have you. T.J. Get up here! I miss you. Weren't we having weekly phone dates? I'm the worst. Can't wait for us to be closer though. It will be so great!

Jamie and Kellsye, thank you... Just, thank you. I'm not sure what else to say. You have to deal with me more than anyone should. And I'm a nutcase right now. Love you both.

Andrew, you're my home. I can't wait for what's next. We are the luckiest of the lucky. And thank you for bringing that crazy dog into my life. Trinny is the best listener ever, and she knows that I'll give her treats after I talk to myself for a while.

I didn't exactly plan for this post to be a little tribute to my people, but that's what came out. As for the future, I won't promise anything too ambitious (blog-wise) so that no one is let down when they check back to see if there is a new post soon... but I do want to keep this going. Plus there's an amazing new coffee shop in my neighborhood (I'm there right now!) and it feels great to get things out of my overly-confused brain, so I might try and make a habit of it.

To anyone that is reading, thank you. Until next time...